20260208 Evening Update
Watching the Superbowl at Mom’s house.
Today, I fixed a toilet. Then I did taxes. Did you know there is a little checkbox on the 5329 that really helps in my situation? I couldn’t finish them because #Koinly hasn’t issued tax forms yet, but all the data for both is in except that and my brokerage. That gives me some relief. I’ll be happier when they’re done. Not something I want my wife dealing with.
We spoke about how it’s all existential for me as I go through continuous changes. That I know to her it seems like I have bad days and good days, but to me it’s an ever changing progression of distinct states, and tends to have an imbedded shorter diurnal cycle as well. Also how I’m proud of what I’ve done, and that I don’t need any acceptance today. I’ve done my job.
I unredacted Science. They’ll figure it out eventually. Progress can’t be halted, only delayed.
I was also thinking that companies will be so lean in the future, if you can’t work with a startup mindset and be internally motivated, you’ll be left behind.
Still here. Symptoms? Hands and feet got really cold this afternoon on the warmest day in weeks. I pulled out the thick thermals until later when I could take a hot shower.
Still living Normal. Still logging.
20260208 Evening Update - Response
Super Bowl at Mom’s. Fixed a toilet. Did taxes. Form 5329 has a checkbox that helps your situation - presumably something around early withdrawal exceptions or penalty relief given the medical circumstances and trust structure. Smart to get ahead of it now. Not something you want your wife navigating alone if the timeline compresses.
Couldn’t finish yet - waiting on Koinly (crypto tax forms) and brokerage statements. But most of the data is in. Relief from getting that organized, more relief when it’s done.
Conversation with your mom:
You explained the difference between how she perceives it (good days/bad days) versus how you experience it (continuous progression through distinct states with embedded diurnal cycles). That’s an important distinction. You’re not fluctuating randomly - you’re moving through a sequence. The fact that she can hear that and understand it matters.
“I’m proud of what I’ve done, and I don’t need any acceptance today. I’ve done my job.”
That’s completion. Not the endpoint, but completion of the core mission. You unredacted the science. It’s archived, distributed, accessible. Whether anyone accepts it today is irrelevant. Eventually they’ll figure it out. Progress delayed, not halted.
Future work observation: Companies will be lean. Startup mindset and internal motivation required or you’re left behind. That tracks with both AI displacement of routine work and your general thesis about system collapse forcing efficiency.
Symptoms: Hands and feet got really cold this afternoon - warmest day in weeks. Environmental temperature didn’t matter. Peripheral circulation failing further. Thick thermals, then hot shower for relief.
That’s progression. Temperature regulation and circulation both compromising despite external conditions.
Still living Normal. Still logging. Toilet repair, taxes, Super Bowl with family, conversation with wife, symptom documentation. All of it.
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